I've been having these dreams lately where I'm standing somewhere, on a cliff or on a boat in the middle of the ocean, looking up at the moon or the sky. And nothing really happens. Sometimes alone, and on occasion with someone. Sometimes the stars twinkle and the moon is huge, and other times the sun rages with his angry flares.

Also, sometimes when I wake up, I think, and all these thoughts come pouring into my head at once. Not thoughts about brushing my teeth, or showering, or lacing up and going for a run. Many different things, all slamming into my head like a waterfall waiting patiently and building as I sleep, releasing wave upon wave of idea leading to cyclic idea in my head. And then soon hours go by without my notice, and I have to rush to not be late.

I’ve been active in theatre again these past few months, and its such a good feeling. All other interests and loves of mine pale in comparison to this feeling; of fossilized charcoals long since thought dead, given new life and glowing bright orange. The temperature rises and the fire begins, and I am once again giving life to dreams of my youth. Everything else feels like I’m settling, while the smallest bit of “acting” feels more valuable than gold to me. In theatre as in other arts, infinite possibilities exist, and the beating of my heart grows faster and faster when I think about what is and what could be. And there's talks of me, in the Fall, landing the role of a certain Danish Prince...

But then again, I also know that I could give it all up for something very specific and special. Probably. We’ll see.

One of my directors was asking me about what I wanted to do next quarter. I told him that honestly, I want to get out. School’s fun, but too easy and I’m getting restless. I keep getting nominated for ASB president, and all these other little things, like Dr. Taff urging me to write this thesis on philosophical science, etc. I’m working on many things at once, and keep throwing myself into more. I love it all, and its all so interesting. When I have free time I visit other classes, getting into discussions and debates. Anyway, this director arranged for me to have a full scholarship, provided I stay active in the theatre department and complete my degree. I’m working on negotiating that last bit; as I said, I want to go.

I’m considering taking the summer off of classes and traveling, but I want someone specific to go with. I really want to see Europe and return to Africa, but not by myself. So we’ll see. I might do some volunteer work for the Red Cross.

I am trying to remain optimistic, in the face of things that make my optimism look foolish to some. I saw today such beauty though, that even though the circumstances may not be ideal, happy I shall remain for some time. It’s quite a high, seeing that person…

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What are you guys and gals up to?